I think I may be inadvertently trying to avoid growing up. I had these plans you see. To get my driver's permit on my birthday, to get a summer job... But my mind is rejecting them, by not allowing to just sit down and read the manual, and trying to preventme from even addressing a letter to one of my references. It took me two weeks to print out the application and complete, and another to send it, and I still need to to mail the reference sheet to one of my references.
I feel completely out of control about it. I know it is part procrastination, but I think I also just don't want to enter the real world. My mind really wants to read and address, to make money and to finally not have to rely on my parents for rides, but it is having a lot of trouble with the middle part.
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